Child’s Play

It’s right in front of you.

Everything you need, everything you’ve been in search of. Anything and everything you can imagine for yourself.

It’s right there. In front of you.

There is no where else you need to go. No place else you need to look. No one else you need to be. Nothing else you need to get in order for you to find exactly what you’ve been looking for.

It’s been right under your nose all along. It’s never left your sight. There hasn’t been a moment when you’ve looked away from it.

This is not a metaphor. This is not some koan or profound riddle for you to ponder. I’m spelling it out to you as literally as I would to a five year old. It’s ALL right in front of you.

The problem isn’t that you don’t see it. You see it alright. You see it all the time. The problem is HOW you see it. That’s the only issue here. Quit pretending like there is something else you need to see. There isn’t. This is all there is. This little moment you’re having right now and whatever insignificant thing is going on in it – is ALL there is to it.

The problem isn’t that we don’t see. The problem is that we simply can’t seem to accept that, this is it.

“That’s it?”

That’s the sound of an anti-climax.

And the truth is profoundly anti-climactic. So, anti-climactic it’s bizarre. It’s slap-you-in-the-face kind of anti-climactic. It’s what-the-hell-were-you-even-thinking kind of anti-climactic.

It’s too obvious to even admit to. We’d feel too sheepish confessing to it. After everything we’ve done? After all the effort, energy and emotion we’ve put in? After all the blood, sweat and tears, burned bridges, lost opportunities, opinions defended to the death, broken promises, shattered hopes, rock-bottom lows, triumphant struggles and heroic journeys to claw our way back up : after all that melodrama – THIS??? This mundane, middling, mediocre mess of a moment is “IT”?

Not WHAT, but HOW. Never what, only how. That’s all this is about.

You’ve been in search of a different “what”. Think about how ridiculous that is. Just think for a moment at the sheer absurdity of trying to get somewhere other than you are. And further, thinking that this imaginary “other place” is going to be qualitatively different than where you are right now. And exponentially more absurd: the desire to be someone or some version other than exactly what you are right now.

But we do. We all do. I certainly did for years. It felt so normal. It’s so trivial to simply think that any other reality than this one could be possible and any other version of me, other than this one, is imminently available.

The things we can convince ourselves of in order to avoid the obvious…And the cherry on top is that, sensing something missing in our perspectives, we seek out “experts” to show reality to us.

Let this sink in just a moment.

We are asking “other people” to tell us where to look for what we are already looking at.

Enlightenment is a game for children.

I watch my little girls play make believe with their dolls and stuffed animals, weaving fantastical tales of adventure, intrigue, peril and eventual triumph. It’s a great way to pass a dull and rainy Sunday afternoon. And it strikes me that the human endeavour for enlightenment is no different. When whittled down to the very bare bones of the intention driving it : it’s nothing more than a strategy to pass the time.

Escape into a fantasy world where the impossible becomes possible. Embark on an epic quest to find the key that unlocks the puzzle of the universe. Discover the elixir that instantaneously resolves all suffering. Uncover the holy grail that liberates the soul from samsara.

Anything, absolutely ANYTHING, to escape the glaring and mind bogglingly simple obviousness of the matter.

And those gurus and experts will oblige us. Why the hell not? A fool and his money are soon parted. And all the schmucks seem absolutely determined to part with their money, so why not give them a helping hand? They’re just suckers starving at the buffet. Fools suffocating in the fresh air. Water, water everywhere and not a drop to drink!

You’ve been had. We’ve all been had. Been lied to from the very beginning by all those whom we trusted and who said there’s something ”more” to this thing called “life” than what we can see.

And in the quest for that “something more”, we miss out on the “everything” that is in front of us. Yet, the “more” is contained in the all, not outside of it. The more is discovered through immersing oneself in what’s right in front of us. Not escaping from it. That kind of “more” one seeks elsewhere is not really a “more”, it’s a less. Because it takes you away from “what exists”, into a realm of “what doesn’t”.

The human quest for: love, perfection, wealth, beauty, goodness, justice, enlightenment – it’s all a child’s play. Making a whole lot of somethings out of nothing. And in the process ending up with nothing to show for it, despite being given everything. Right from the get go.

Everything I ever wanted. Everything I ever needed. Everything I ever craved to know, to love, to experience, to discover was always right in front of me. I just couldn’t see it, because I was always looking for it elsewhere. Looking for it in the countless places it wasn’t, instead of the one place it had always been.

Right here. In front of me.

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